Some of you who have become familiar with this blog (Thank You! 🙂 ) may have already stumbled upon the fact that music presents an pervasive underlying theme in my life.
Some of you may also be aware of my quirky pastime of co-opting other peoples’ songs and writing my own substituted “lyrics” to them, an eccentricity that dates back about 25 years.
Today marks the one-year anniversary of my initial Asperger’s/autism discovery. A year ago today, I had kicked off my journey by taking my very first online questionnaire. Although the online screenings are merely screening tools, the Asperger’s/Autism Quotient test is incredibly research supported, such that 86% of those scoring between 26 and 31 on a scale of 50 would be diagnose-able as Aspergian/autistic, and the odds were even higher the higher the score.
My first score was 43.
Not surprisingly, my jaw dropped.
Today, I’ve come full circle in a few ways. One is the literal trip around the sun. Another involves my self-discovery and the whole new world–and lovely community!–that have subsequently opened up for me.
One of my favorite pastimes is reflection. Some would say that that’s not productive, because the past is the past. They’re right about the past being in the past, and the past being what it is, without the ability to change it. But I still think that, done in a healthy manner, it can indeed prove productive. Part of the benefit to me comes through the fact that the reflection is another opportunity to further process an event or milestone.
Occasionally, I apply that reflection and processing to a creative filter, which further liberates my syntax and allows me to paint or sketch with words. Here is the vibe I’m feeling today, regarding the beginning of my journey a year ago.
For me to be able to fully and accurately communicate the entirety of the creative writing, the reader must play the same song in their own mind that I had while writing it. Think of it as a rudimentary form of retro-telepathy, or a telepathy after the fact. (And who says we’re not capable of empathy??) 😉
The song is by Mazzy Star, a mellow, folkish alternative band from the 1990s. Although they were known for their hit “Fade Into You”, this song is even better. It’s called “Into Dust”, and the best-quality video I could find is here. For best results, I recommend playing it in a separate tab while reading below, or perhaps listening to the song in its entirety and then maintaining it in your mind while reading in silence… ❤
Thank you for reading this! That means all the lovely world to me ❤
Header Image Source: my favorite tree on my favoritest of gloomy dark late-afternoons in winter, taken with my mobile (of all photography tools). (My partner says it even looks like a shattered mirror, which I thought was cool ❤