Insomnia has graced my circadian clock this morning and thus, I have time to write. 😉
It’s not your imagination; I’ve been scarce lately. Running hot and cold, in and out for a few minutes at a time, then disappearing again for days. A little Ayurveda research here and a little astrology exploration there, with a little starting-of-a-new-intense-school-quarter thrown in for good measure.
I’ve been–eeek!–more social. As in, in my offline life, even. Of course, it helps to have your best childhood friend of almost 30 years decide to move 1200 miles to your same city and live a mere 16 minutes away (I routed it) for the first time in 18 years. And in true AS-related systemizing form, I like to play Unofficial Tour Guide, because, well, I like my town and I love my friend and I’d love the two to settle in nice and cozy-like. 😉
And kittens tend to grow, too, and with that come new mad skillz, like shredding toilet paper and hopping on my partner’s shoulder like a feline parrot. And they tend to keep the same hours in terms of circadian rhythm, so how’s that for automatic compatibility. They do like to step on keyboards and make blog posts magically disappear or occlude my line-of-sight with my computer screen, though, so there’s that.
Yes I feel a little awkward posting again before I’ve had a chance to catch up on my responses and approval of comments on other posts, but what I have is the present, I guess, and I can assure everyone that I will work on those as I have time until I’m caught up. I admit my responses have been a little uneven, and there are several reasons for this…
One, my WP app is outdated and because so is my phone’s OS, it cannot be updated further so it malfunctions a lot, and I otherwise like what I have and would rather not update everything (which pooches the hardware-software compatibility). I’m stubborn that way (grin).
Two, my brain; the thing with cognitive fatigue is that my brain shuts off unexpectedly, despite my having more to get done and wanting to push it further. I can be humming along, happily hyper-focused and contentedly concentrating, and then boom!–Brick Wall. It usually happens at the office or near the end of school, either of which is particularly inconvenient and unwelcome, and my words are pretty much sapped for the day; I have trouble expressing to my partner the profound idea that I’m fixing to go home is not something I could do while walking or chewing gum (lol).
And it’s like driving at night without headlights–you never know when the brick wall is going to come up!
So I end up having to “triage” comments by length, because I more often have the brain-energy budget to respond to shorter or simpler comments, while longer or more complex ones (which I also love!) may require an appropriately-proportioned response. And of course, email and WP both display notifications with the most recent on top, so if I find myself playing catch-up (again) (lol), then some more recent comments might get responded to more quickly than earlier ones. I apologize! ❤
None of that stops me from reading other peoples’ posts, however; I click the Like button to let people know I was there and because yes, I did actually read and genuinely enjoy the post, but I may not be able to assemble a comment, even if the post conjured thoughts or feelings, which they usually do.
There are few things more frustrating or disheartening than having something to say and the desire to say it, but lacking the ability to properly execute it.
With dwindling temperatures and contracting daylight hours, my work schedule thickens, which is always good. Cooling temperatures translate to safer distance from redlining my own energy. Having lived in climates at both extremes (sub-arctic and sub-tropical), I can safely say that very little saps my energy over time more than extreme temperatures (at either end of the spectrum) that drone on and on relentlessly, with little hope of relief in sight. And summer in South Texas lasts a good five or six months.
Which means that I don’t have to worry about it again until April!
And I have a little vibrating tortie kitty pinning my arm down now, so… 😉
(Image Credit: Timothy M. Parker)