A year and five months later, I’ve come to realize that I shouldn’t have put off starting this blog.
When I first began to suspect that I might be on the Asperger’s/autism spectrum, I felt like blogging about it right away. Instead, I waited for a month, doing my research, making sure I had my ducks in a row, and all that.
But there was a lot of processing going on behind the scenes. These were accompanied by micro-thoughts and micro-emotions (although both felt quite “macro” to me at the time), that I never wrote about and thus y’all missed out on at the time.
Miscellaneous thoughts and realizations and light-bulb moments that I never shared. Concepts like another 1% (there is much discussion about the 1% vs the 99% in terms of socioeconomic debate and advocacy, but in a way, neurological orientation–and specifically, Neurodiversity–could be considered an alternative categorization of society, since an estimated 1% of the population is on the spectrum). Or what other names I was considering for this blog. Or various feelings that bubbled to the surface without warning.
I sort of skipped out on a sort of play-by-play that others may have found helpful.
Retrospect is not without a whiff of regret. But the present is not without a streak of opportunity. The first month of my Asperger’s/autism spectrum discovery might not have been properly chronicled at the time, but I can certainly provide those insights now. They might not be quite as fresh, but they certainly stand a chance to be more clear.
So I’ll rectify some of my “negligence” (a term I use half-seriously and half-lightly) in upcoming posts.
With my birthday coming up (soon; in fact, today was my original due date!), and Mercury being retrograde (for those of you who subscribe to that line of thought), I am indeed feeling fairly “retro” myself these days. 😉
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Reblogged this on The Militant Negro™.
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Thank you so much for the reblog 😁💖☮
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You’re so very welcome. 😘🌷😉🌼🤗🌹
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😁😘🌺💞🌟🌟🌟
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You’re a sweetheart Ms. Laina
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Thank you! So are you ✌🏼️😎😍
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Have a great Friday, and an even better 1st day of September.
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Reblogged this on Die Erste Eslarner Zeitung – Aus und über Eslarn, sowie die bayerisch-tschechische Region!.
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Thank you very much for reblogging 😊🌺💖
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Always with a great pleasure, Laina! Sorry, some days i am a little bit too late. 😉 Michael
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Hehe you’re doing better than I am 😁 I was 8 days late just in replying lol 😉 💗💗
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Good evening 🐞
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Hi! 😊😊💖. I’m sorry to be so late in replying; playing catch-up. Thank you for reading and commenting 💚💙
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You’re welcome. Goodnight. 🐞
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Rest well, dear friend! 💗💗
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Thank you. Be happy 🐞
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Thank you! Likewise ❤️🌟❤️
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You’re welcome 🐞
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I took quite some time to blog on my processing as well. I always feared I didn’t have the right or would be dismissed as a “me, too”. I look forward to reading your early thoughts! And happy birthday in advance! 😘😘😘😘😘
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Awww you are awesome, sweetness! I can relate to the apprehension about being dismissed 💚💙. For the record, I can say that I definitely would never think that way toward you 😘😘. I’m always comforted by someone’s saying “me too!” 😁😁. But there may be some out there who might be more dismissive and callous, so the reservation is real 💞💞. Thank you so much for the warm wishes and for sharing your experience, girl 💜💙💚
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My blog helps me to process things I haven’t processed yet. And in turn, I try to write about them. It’s been slow, but I’m starting to get the hang of this thought/type coordination.
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My blog was and is my Autism’s main expressive venue, where I was actually born as a conscious Autistic individual, where I took my first steps, where I came out into the open to breathe as ME, THE ASPIE, where I was encouraged, gently challenged, understood and yes, loved, whatever that may be besides what I’ve already said👾 Reading all the testimonials and comments gave me the courage and confidence to stand for myself, knowing and embracing who I really am. Without my blog and all the truly amazing and unique individuals I am sharing this profoundly incredible condition with, my academic efforts, both recent and especially future would be literally nowhere 🐢⛈️ 👾👍
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In the US do medical practitioners like to talk about their ‘retrospectoscopes’? I remember as a student on rounds with older consultants and they would describe the benefit of reflection and while you cannot go back in time, the ‘retrospectoscope’ is a valuable teaching tool.
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In the UK it’s called Reflective Practice/Analysis, usually Borton’s, Gibbs’, Johns’ and it’s mandatory part of e.g. Mental Health clinical degrees. Quite useful once you get used to them 😉
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I didn’t realize that your Aspie self-realization journey began so recently. You’ve covered so much ground in less than 18 months! Happy birthday in advance!
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Thank you so much! 😁😁. I really really appreciate that 💓💓
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Hope you have an awesome birthday. I celebrated last month, my husbands is next week and my sister’s bday is today. Lots to be grateful for.
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That’s so cool! 💜💙. Our family is a cluster, too; my mom’s is in a week, mine’s 3 days after that, my sister is 3 weeks after that, and my dad’s is 2 days after hers 😁😁. My husband is the odd one – 3 months after mine lol 😉. Happy belated birthday to you, and happy birthday to your sister, and happy birthday in advance to your husband! 🌷🌷🌷
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Such strong words, that resonate with me deeply.
But all things happen in due time! Just like you
there is so much micro-processing going on even
up to the last minute of hitting the publish button.
Every though & experience you have had has led
you to this point. It has all happened just as it should.
Your waves ripple out across the universe touching
upon undiscovered shores, & that is a beautiful thing.
My own light switch would have still been off if it wasn’t
for you, not only are you a wave but also a lighthouse.
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Oh wow, what a touching and beautiful compliment! 😘😘💗☮💗. Your expressions are gorgeous and vivid, and they construct lovely images in my mind. I’m so honored, and the feeling is very mutual 😘🌹☮🌹🌷💚🌷
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Reblogged this on American Badass Activists.
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Thank you so much, sister! 😁❤️❤️
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Happy upcoming birthday and we are glad too you started this blog.
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Thank you so kindly! Y’all have a nice way of bringing me a big grin! I’m so happy to know that the blog is helping people 👍🏼💙💚🎶
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It sure is Laina. You write with such wisdom and are not afraid to bare you heart in the arena of wanting to bring forth truth about your experience with the cross you carry. How can one not learn from you.
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Thank you so much for the mention 😊❤️
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You truly have a way with words, I like it a lot
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Thank you very much 💞💞. You are too kind 💓💓. Likewise!! 👍🏼👍🏼
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Just stating the truth. Stay amazing
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Thank you, my friend! You too! 💓☮💓
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Funny, I’ve never been able to nominate a point in time as the starting point of my autism discovery journey. I would have said about this time last year, when I devoured every single post on “Musings of an Aspie” and decided for the first time that I would find out, seriously, once and for all, whether I am on the spectrum or not. But then I remember reading another blog (“Life on the Spectrum”) the year before, and in fact I have an Aspie test I took in 2015. Then I remember reading a blog called “Andrea’s Buzzing About” years ago (anyone remember that?), and the first time I took the AQ test, that would have been around 2007 or 2008. The longer I think about it, the more I remember of looking into the subject, dropping it, coming back to it etc. When I have the time to dig into my old stuff at my parents’ place, I’ll probably find a few articles on autism I kept almost 30 years ago. It seems that autism has always fascinated me. Funny that…
As for the discovery journey – well, I’m still discovering…
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Looking forward to reading your future posts. Looking backwards may have some advantages. 😊ellen
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Thank you very much! I’m so glad you enjoyed it 💓. Looking back has helped me immensely, yes 👍🏼😊💖
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