Two lone wolves [autistic poetry]

(Beginning note: this is how I view most of my relationships, especially the more successful ones.  It’s not them; it’s me–and I’m not sure that “it” is even a bad thing.  It’s acceptable to me, even comfortable, most of the time.  It is what it is, and it just Is.  To capture the mood, you will probably want the song running through your head that was running through mine when I wrote this (although my “lyrics” don’t match the song precisely this time), which is the song “A Chi Sa Dove Sara” (link to YouTube video) by the little-known, Denver-based Goth Americana band Tarantella.  Definitely worth a listen.  They’ve inspired me so.  This particular poetry piece was written in the nippy chill of November 2015.)

I’m gonna climb that hill over there
And I’m gonna make it
I’m gonna walk down that road over there
(I’ll) follow you, (if you) follow me, and I…
I’m gonna throw that rock over there
It picks you, it picks me, and we…
Are two lone wolves in the icy winter rain
Sometimes it’s you, sometimes it’s me

I’m gonna walk that plain over there
Pick the scrubby little leaves and the there is to believe, and I…
I’m gonna look out from on top of the hill
All I see is gray
I’m gonna aim for that bush over there
Maybe it’s you, maybe it’s me, and we…
Are two lone wolves on the same icy road
I see you, you see me
If I see you, will you see me?

I’m gonna face that sleet over there
And I’m gonna take it
I’m gonna walk that path over there
(I’ll) follow you, (if you) follow me, and I…
I’m going to catch that cloud over there
It licks you, it licks me, and we…
Are two lone wolves in the same icy world
I feel you, you feel me
Sometimes in you, I see me

If we’re the same, do you love me?


  1. Beautiful poem! As soon as I started reading it
    “Running Up That Hill” started playing in my head.
    (The Placebo Cover, not the Kate Bush Original)
    Which is strange because running is in the foreword,
    & that hill is in the first line of your poem. Strange how
    quickly words, phrases, memories & sounds connect.

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    1. Omg cool! I never would have made that connection to that song, but now that I think about it, it works really well! You’ve got an eye/ear for this stuff ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’š๐ŸŒŸ

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      1. You have the uncanny talent of writing things I could not
        find words to express, or quite put my finger on with so
        such accuracy… That there is such a synchronicity in
        this world makes it a much less lonely, daunting place.

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        1. Awww that’s awesome!! I totally feel the same way about you; you always say such exquisite things, things I could never find quite the right words for ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒบโ˜ฎ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’–

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      1. Most of his words are “nice” words๐Ÿ‘ The only statement we’re trying to change is “shut up”(which he got from Harry Potter๐Ÿ˜ฑ) we think “be quiet please” is much nicer. We’re working on it๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ—ฃ๐Ÿ‘ฃ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’–


  2. Well, well, well…
    And the Wave returned to Silence, from where it emerged. I’ve finally found the Laina “core”, exactly where all your best adaptive mechanisms must stay outside, i.e. your poetry self.
    Nice to finally meet the core You, after I’ve met the “social” you ๐ŸŒŸ
    Please tell me if I’m wrong ๐Ÿ‘พ๐Ÿ‘ผ

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    1. Hehe you’re so close it’s like tasting clouds on the tongue. So very close ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’–. The kernel–the deepest that I’ve been able to identify is music, either my own or that of others. That’s where the kernel is ๐Ÿ˜Š. But you are the closest anyone has ever come! *Applause!!* ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’™โ˜ฎ๐Ÿ’—

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      1. Hmmm, sweet congratulations to myself ๐Ÿ‘พActually, my whole comment was much longer, but out of respect ๐Ÿ˜‡ I kept the “profiling” on the side of your chosen, front window privacy ๐Ÿ˜‰ It would be utterly interesting though to sit inside for a more asocial chat ๐ŸŽ“

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        1. Oh hell yes! I’m on What’s App if you’re interested ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’ž

          Sweet congrats to you indeed! ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

          I’m sorry that I hadn’t done a fuller reply – I’m running on a partial brain at the moment lol ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—

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          1. Exceptional idea, WhatsApp super cool, I sent you a message through your Contact page, I’ll wait for your reply and proceed ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘พ๐Ÿ‘ฝ๐ŸŒท

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  3. Amazingly well done! I would also like to tell you I met my 2nd cousin, a man named Joe, and he is just like you, an extremely talented writer and poet. While I stayed with him and his family in NY I was able to talk to him about my blog and asked if he should have a blog. His family members said he should definitely do it, and he wants to now create a blog just like yours. We will be meeting with him in NY city this time in a week or so since we’re in Maine right now, it I really wanted to tell you! Would you like a link to his blog when it comes out?

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