I’ve returned home, with nary a flight delay. In fact, we landed a full hour ahead of schedule on Wednesday night (!). π
Since then, I’ve been switching gears, an activity that has never come easy to me. (My Asperger’s/autism spectrum discovery of 2016 explained why, decoding for me what had otherwise been a very confusing personal trait that no one around me seemed to share or, for that matter, understand. Switching gears is a slow and energy-demanding process for me!)
Emotionally, I’m surprisingly light and sometimes even bright. Cognitively and energetically, however, it’s a different story. My batteries, while happy-ish, are worn down. I’ve needed rest. I’m trying to balance the burning desire to catch up and reconnect with all my WordPress lovelies with the need to unplug for a much higher portion of the day than is usual for me.
*Sigh.* Batteries these days. π
So, if you haven’t heard from me or seen me on your blog in a while, please don’t begin to think that I’ve abandoned you or fallen off the planet or anything π
I’m still here, recouping and rebooting. I’m also gearing up for a couple busy weeks at work, so I’m taking some downtime now, while I have it.
I’ll catch up with everyone in time, I promise. I’m doing my best to give what I can. I’m enjoying reading other people’s blogs, which I spent all day Friday doing, and yesterday I cuddled with my kitties who had missed their “mom”. Tomorrow begins a workweek of deadlines and responsibility.
So, what I have is today π
Today I’ll probably oscillate between WordPress Time and Family Time, maybe even a nap, if I end up having to take an antihistamine (crossing my fingers that the histamine stays away!) and maybe reading a book, too. All while spending some quality time with the couch, too π
I’m here; I haven’t gone away. Just enjoying a semi-unplugged battery recharge.
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Sigh batteries these days… That’s my life
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Amen ππΌππΌππΌ. It’s getting to be mine, too ππ
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Lol
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I’m getting some love
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Totally! ππ. I’m feeling it, too πΊπ·
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Lol
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Welcome back
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Thank you, luv! ππ
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Welcome home! I can relate to it being tough to switch gears and being low on energy even if your mood is over all okay or happy. It takes me time to get back into my normal routine and destress from the business or changes. Sometimes longer than others. I hope you get the time you need to rewind from the holidays and traveling. At least you are back home. π Take care. β€
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Thank you bunches, girl! π. You’re spot-on ππΌππΌ. Yeah my mood is ok but fragile because of the low energy, if that makes sense (?) π. I miss my buds but yeah, it’s good to be home and a relief to be safe π. Take care of You too! β€οΈβ€οΈ
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You’re very welcome! Yes it makes perfect sense. π β€ Get lots of rest and I am sure your energy will come back soon.
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Thanks! I will, and I think it will πππ
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Oopsies typo…Busyness*
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Hehe I do that a lot π π
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Welcome back sweetie. I was thinking of you today and here you are. Female intuition or whatever.
Nobody began to think that you abandoned us. It’s YOU who think that. Save your batteries.
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Thank you, Bojana!! You’re so right ππΌππΌ. I’m pretty hard on myself lol πβ€οΈ. I’ve been thinking about you too! Female intuition indeed ππΌππΌ
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Good to know you’re okay Laina. Take care of your self and enjoy family time and some relaxation.
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Thank you, Gary! πβ€οΈ. I’ll get back on YouTube as soon as I can, too ππ
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Hello Lovely π time to relax and smell the roses πΉπΉπΉπΉπΉπΉπΉπΉπΉπΉπΉ
Week look forward to seeing you when you feel better β€ππβ€ππβ€ππβ€ππ
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Thank you so much, my lovely! ππ. You’re right on ππππππππ·πΊππππ»π
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I think I’ve got a similar “feature” to iPhones in that as my battery has gotten older I’ve been reprogammed to run slower. I wonder who I can take a class action against
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Me too! I’m wondering that myself ππ
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Recharge, first and foremost, everything else can wait. π
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Amen, dear one ππ
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No apologies needed! Your health comes first. Stay on the docking station to recharge as long as you needπ
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Thank you luv! ππ. You’re the bomb β€οΈ
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Hope you feel rested, better and we are fine, we take breaks, too! π
Hope you have a Happy New Year! π π
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Thank you! I did indeed! Same to you, girl! πππ
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Aaah I hope you enjoyed some good ol’ sofa relaxing and reading!
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Thank you very much! π. I totally did ππ
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Welcome back, and do take care of yourself. You might have noticed that I have been absent from WordPress until last week, as I was taking a bit of a holiday from the internet as well during my holidays. It’s true about the need to recharge, sadly I find, though, that as soon as you are back to the daily grind, the charge you have accumulated over the holidays drains away again very quickly. (“I only came back from my holidays three days ago and it’s like they never happened” – that sort of thing.) I had a lovely weekend, but today I’ve got the Monday blues. Although some of it probably has to do with my ongoing midlife crisis, for which there is no quick solution.
Anyway, blogging and commenting should not be an obligation, and I am happy to see you whenever you pop up.
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Hi my lovely! I’m so happy to see you back π Yep, I noticed that it had been a little while since I’d seen you last β€ I figured that yeah, holidays and recharging and stuff π You're SO right about the recharge draining quickly once one gets back into the swing of things! That's exactly what I've found as well. I'm so glad you had a lovely weekend, so sorry to hear about the Monday Blues – I'm right there with you (even though it's Tuesday now π )! Midlife crises are almost always tough; hang in there, luv! Thank you for your kind and reassuring words, my friend! I'm happy to see you whenever you pop up, too! β€
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Oh, good! Iβm even slow replying to comments! But one thing that happened is that on top of my current special interest a previous special interest has come roaring back, so my brain is absolutely full of stuff that is not WordPress! π So busy reading that I donβt have time to write. But I decided to ride this wave since itβs a source of happiness βΊοΈβ€οΈ
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Yay!! I’m so happy for you, luv! π€. Something similar has happened to me in the past few days as well lol. For the first time in almost 2 years βΊοΈ. Keep riding that wave of happiness, my friend ππ·πΊ
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Glad to see you back!!!! Hope your trip was enjoyable, maybe you found some warm weather when you got home?
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Thank you! ππ. Yes ma’am it was, and oh yes I did πβ¨βοΈππ
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Welcome back π
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Thank you so much, luv! π β€
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Have fun re-charging, we miss you!
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Thank you, dear! I really miss y’all too π. I’m never too far away ππ
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Enjoy your downtime, Laina xo We’ll wait for you (good things are worth waiting for, as the saying goes!)
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Thank you very much, Christy! So awesome to see you again! π€ππ·
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Welcome back! Hope you get charged up soon!
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Thank you, friend! It’s nice to be home, although I miss the peeps I visited π. Still recharging lol; busy workweek ahead! Already I can’t wait for Friday lol ππΊ
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Really hoping you’re doing okay… Will be thinking of you, and fingers crossed you’re managing to put yourself first and get the rest and recharge you need Β β₯
Caz x
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Hi Caz! Thanks so much for your kind words and for thinking of me β€ I'm feeling really introverted (more than usual lol) lately, sort of like cocooning, if that makes sense π Everything's OK, which is good π I'm just feeling that "hibernation" thing a little strongly this year, I guess. That and things are a bit busy with work and a couple of newish projects. I'm having to conserve my energy a bit more than I thought. Even though it's all good, I miss being on here as much, and hopefully I can get back on here more often again soon! (I can't resist at least ducking in for a bit anyway π ) β€
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Take care of yourself
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Thank you so much, Christy! I really appreciate your encouraging words πβ€οΈπΉ
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Christy? Lol
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Oh Jeez lol. That’s what I get for taking an antihistamine that causes drowsiness π. Sorry about that! π³ππ
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Lol, it’s ok
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Thank you so kindly, my brother π β€
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I don’t think you need to explain being quiet Laina, I think most of us probably get it. I believe you are entitled to keep what energy you have.
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Thank you bunches, dear one πππ
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Totally understand, I can indemnify with doing something that takes a lot of thought over long periods time to recuperate X
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Amen, girl π. Virtual hugs to you! ππ
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Thank you so much, dear one β€ β€
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Thank you for following my blog. Sometimes, it takes a while to rest. Take care.
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Thank you! I’m surprised by how much time I’ve needed this time around π
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just stopped by to share a response i made to someone whos depressed and also says:
“Normal people seem happier. They have friends. They do things.”
this is a person i think about a lot. i replied:
oh, you have friends, you do things.
i was thinking about you today, even about the line βnormal people seem happier.β they do, dont they? it comes down to consensusβ sometimes it just shouldnt be needed.
sometimes, normal and autistic is like farsightedness and nearsightedness. if you show a nearsighted person a sign thats far away, and tell them it says something meaningfulβ they will squint at it and say βnot that i can tell.β well if they cant tell, what should you say?
normal people find their happiness in the faraway signs, and theyre happy and they can see all sorts of things in the distanceβ but ignore things that are right in front of them. they can focus on broader picturesβ sometimes.
we can squint and look at the broader picture for sure, but we spend a lot of time saying nothings there, because its not as easy for us. people tell us theres something there, but its hazy. and if we cant tell, what should they say? if i told you there was something great out there, wouldnt you want me to point to it? but if its hazy enough, what good will pointing do?
now we find joys in things right in front of usβ in nooks and crannies, details and little things no one else pays attention to. and if we hold these things up and smile the normal people squint and swear we are looking at nothing.
oh. π¦ i guess its just us then. but if they dont get it, maybe its nothing. after all, they outnumber us 95 to 1.
so the things that really make them happy just dont do it for us exactly the sameβ which by the way is what they build friendship onβ the things that make them happyβ and the things that make us happy just dont do it for them (not exactly the same) so they cant relate either.
rather than squint and try to look at the things we try to show each other, we just throw our hands up and say βwhatever!β but we are still outnumbered, and their definition of happiness is a lot closer to consensus than ours. if we just put it to a voteβ theyre happy, and we are ridiculous.
is there really only one kind of happiness though? just the normal sort, where normal things are what make you happy? or is the sort of thing that makes us happy just as valid?
because if we didnt just put it to a vote, arent we just as happy those times when we find a kindred spirit? only there are so few of us compared toβ you know, them. kindred spirits are a not a thriving species. without kindred spirits, doesnt friendship seem hard and happiness seem unlikely?
my understanding of depression is a little more nuanced (and clinical) than this. but its not just our happiness that loses the vote, its our problems too. if we put it to a vote, are the things that cripple us really that much of a problem? no. we are fine. just get on with things. its easyβ if we let democracy decide whats difficult and whats not.
so our problems arent real, our happiness isnt real, and their happiness is. like i said, thats not how clinical depression works. but it is a really industrial recipe for loneliness and low self-esteem. this is a problem worth fixing, and the more people we meet who DONT think our problems arent problems and DONT think the things that make us happy are silly or stupid, the more reason we have to feel like we have friends and like we are happy tooβ because now we can have our own little consensus on whether we are happy, have needs, and βdo things.β
as long as we take βtheirβ word for it, we are just being silly. butβ¦ what if they dont know us that well? maybe theyre squinting and they just want to go back to being farsighted, which is natural for them. its high time we made that not so much *our* problem.
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Good job my friend π
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Thank you so kindly π β€
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HEY GIRL–WELCOME BACK!
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Thank you bunches, my friend! π β€
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