Hi all! OK, first some quick updates…
- I’ve fished some comments out of my spam folder (dang WordPress!) and replied to them. I plan to catch up on replying to comments as I can, so please try not to feel ignored! I totally don’t mean to ignore anyone. 🙂
- I’ve been dealing with some heavy emotional stuff lately, some of which came to light on Friday and Saturday, and other of which came to a head on Sunday and yesterday. I think I’m starting to climb out. We shall see.
- I’ve been saving links to various blog awards for the past year (yes, year) or so, and I plan to group them together and catch up on them in sort of a “blog award post series”, if that’s OK? I’m embarrassed and ashamed that I haven’t gotten to them before now, because they’re such an honor to receive (!), and I have few “excuses”, other than the catastrophe that was my 2017 and the rebuilding process that has so far eclipsed my 2018. But all I can say is, they’re coming. I haven’t forgotten about any of you, I can assure you that 🙂
OK, and now for the meat of the post… It’s not earth-shatteringly meaty, but I wanted to share with you something I wrote in my personal journal a little over a week ago. It’s how I explain my experience of alexithymia… The terminology is crude, but my intention is to communicate the message in a light manner that practically anybody can wrap their heads around. So, here it is, the downside of alexithymia, from my perspective…. 😉
Alexithymia kind of sucks. Sure, it spares us the suffering of emotional pain, but let’s face it: let’s say your ass is numb and you sit down on a tack. You don’t feel the tack, because your ass is numb.
But just because your ass is numb and you feel fine, that doesn’t mean that sitting on the tack is good for you, or even OK. Your ass would be much better off without the tack stuck in it. (I don’t think sitting on a tack is on anybody’s Bucket List.)
But you don’t even know you should get up out of the chair and pluck the tack out of your ass, because you don’t feel the pain. Pain is a big motivator to take action; if you don’t feel pain, there’s no motivation to take the action needed to improve the situation.
So, if you’re numb to the tack, you stay seated, with a tack up your ass. Even if you’re vaguely aware that there might be a tack in your ass’s midst, removing it may not be as high a priority as it might otherwise ideally be. And that’s where I am right now…